All I Want For Christmas Are My Two Front Teeth
Christmas was incredibly fun this year. Ella has such a sweet, fun spirit to her that Brian and I kept saying how we just have to remember each second. We have never taken so many pictures. Santa showed up at one of our family Christmas get-togethers and Ella stood by his side stroking his hand with a look of complete awe. She then sang made up songs the rest of the night about how great Santa is.
Emerson was also thoroughly enjoyable. She has become just the sweetest, easiest baby. We saw her for the first time work really hard to get her sister's attention with cooing and smiling initiating it all on her own. She also has an adorable new smile where she crinkles her nose and squints her eyes.
As the holidays are coming to a close and we are looking forward to a new year I have been taking a look back at the year. What a year!! It was (by a long shot) the most challenging year of my life. Most of it was spent trying to figure out what in God's name was wrong with my baby? Why is she so miserable all the time? Then once we had an answer, I spent much of the year trying to figure out why this happened to us. I still look at Emerson once in a while and wonder what she would be like if she just happened to have a few more genes on her 7th chromosome. The good news is that I am definitely doing that type of no where thinking a lot less. I hope this new year brings more acceptance, more healing of my heart, less what-ifs, and more fun. The one thing I know for sure is that I love my husband and my girls with all my heart and that I look forward to every moment that I spend with them. I want to enjoy each moment and take nothing for granted. Happy New Year Everyone!!